but I have to say something. I am not ready to come back to blogging yet, but this is eating at me. If this is a tad incoherent, my apologies.
I haven’t written about what is going on w/ Gaza, Palestine and Israel. I haven’t known what to say, b/c it isn’t as simple as it looks. It isn’t as simple as the bigger guy beating up and brutalizing the smaller guy mindlessly.
What is happening in Gaza is horrific. It sickens me to no end. It is beyond tragic, and I can’t even come up w/ words to describe how incredibly wrong I feel it is. I do not condone what is happening. I hate war. I think it is ugly, and while it may be necessary in some situations, I find that we tend to drag it out much longer than it is ever needed.
I believe deeply in non-violence. Like bfp said in this post, I prefer to find a non violent way to approach things. I believe that spanking teaches children that violence is acceptable when you can’t get your way.
But I also spent a good chunk of my life learning about war, how it works, why we do it, and mostly why I vehemently object to it.
I know things.
And there are two sides to every coin, and usually at least three sides to every story: ours, theirs, and in the middle somewhere the truth.
I have told people who have debated war w/ me that I know things. I have talked to past instructors of mine for ways to answer their questions when they argue the point “B-b-b-but Bush lied about WMDs!!!1!”. I was told to respond w/
I can’t tell you why or elaborate. And I will understand if you don’t believe me, or think I am talking out of my ass. I really don’t care. It’s not my place or job or even right to explain these things to you. Realize that it physically hurts me to know that I can defend President Mondo Fucko in something. Sometimes truth hurts us that way.
It’s like back in the 80’s when Reagan decided that he needed to let the US know why we reacted to Russia the way we did. He felt that we had a need to know (yes, I invoked Reagan, maybe it is my reformed Republican self talking).
We don’t now.
It’s the same here.
I know things.
And some of them you could know.
Some of them you don’t, but we don’t have a need. Either w/ Iraq or w/ Gaza.
But I do know a thing or two about self preservation. I also know that, like in the linked post above, when you watch your people die and suffer other unspeakable horrors, eventually something is going to snap.
I also know that if you poke a giant bear w/ a stick enough times eventually that bear is going to turn around and rip your throat out. The same way that if you are being punched in the face on the playground repeatedly, even if you are bigger, if you keep getting punched, and it hurts and starts knocking out your teeth, you are eventually going to fight back to protect yourself.
It’s also not unlike a large dog who gets his ears yanked on by a child repeatedly. He could ignore it for a while. He might even move to another corner for his nap, or nip harmlessly as a warning, but eventually, if the ear yanking persists, that child is going to get bitten, b/c getting your ears yanked on fucking hurts.
It’s self preservation.
I do not for one second condone what Israel is doing. I do not agree that it is OK to bomb and blow up people who may or may not be your enemy. I cringe and cry and wonder what kind of a world we live in where this sort of thing can happen.
But I also understand it. I understand that sometimes when you have been hit enough you are going to hit back.
And I know that Israel tried. I know that they have ignore literally thousands of bombs and mortars and whatnot. I know that they have tried to stay peaceful and hold on to the cease fire while their own children died. It might not match up in percentages, but they are numbers of people all the same. Innocent lives all the same. I know that they wanted to find another way.
I know things.
I know that Gaza is a double victim here, their hand being forced by radical Hamas, and now being attacked by Israel.
I know that Palestine is not actually the antagonizer.
I also know that Hamas isn’t stupid. What the hell does someone think is going to happen when they provoke a nation as fortified as Israel? Has anyone been following along at home? Israel has a pretty beefed up army, and I would have to think that this outcome had to been expected on some level.
The people of Gaza are victims. That is clear.
I abhor violence, and anyone who knows me and reads this blog should know that.
But I can not blindly point at Israel and paint them as wholly an evil force. It isn’t that simple. The lives lost in Israel matter too. When your people are threatened and killed you have a right to protect them. That is what provoked us into World War II. That is what set us off after Bin Laden. When you are attacked on your own soil and your people die you fight back in an effort to protect.
Israel has the ability to be more careful about where they attack. They are the bigger power, and w/ that comes the responsibility to know that they need to exercise that power more carefully. Israel is not innocent here. They also know better.
It isn’t as simple as it looks, even if it seems as if I am trying to make it simplistic. Honestly, I am not quite ready to be back to blogging coherently, so I am open to discussion, but I do not have patience right now for hostility. I realize that I have an unpopular opinion. My google reader tells me so, so you can bet I will be moderating w/ a heavy hand. If anyone wants to discuss this I will as I have time. Discussion good, belligerence and douche-baggery bad.
And, no, I will not elaborate on the things I know. Once in a while people have to accept that I might know something that their fancy educations didn’t teach them. For good reason.